Our Land

One of my favorite movies is Hero, it ranks right up there with The 39 Steps and Notorious. It is visually stunning. I love the color themes - they make this designer's heart happy. I am a sucker for anything Asian and I don't mind a little of the Kung Fu. It does have subtitles but usually I count that as a good thing, the DVD does have an English track but I find it annoying and prefer the subtitles. I find the Flying Snow and Broken Sword love story so compelling. I want to cry everytime I think about them. I saw this in the theatre and the fight between Flying Snow and Moon was gorgeous.

Deflating

I always find it disappointing that one recipe of banana bread only yields one precious loaf.

Also FYI if you want to get someone's attention in my house just say they words "banana bread."

Economizing?

When it cost $50 to fill up his little Honda, Moose threw up his hands and said "Enough." He did a great deal of research on how to bike to work without looking like a hard core biker. I told him I would support biking to work but I would not support those silly little biking outfits. Then he went out and stimulated the economy by buying a bike on Cragislist and now he is biking to work. I have already stopped driving almost every where. I drive to church, cello lessons and grocery shopping. If you have a family big enough for a mini van you don't have many options, the bus is NOT an option with 3 kids. Now we can put less money into the economy by economizing on our gas consumption. It all seems so very...Portland.

It is actually a good thing. Moose has been contemplating how to incorporate exercise into his life of late and this will save us a gym membership. It is only 7 miles round trip, but 7 miles of biking is more exercise than 7 miles of sweating it out in you unconditioned car. A great victory was won by me as I convinced him that he HAD to eat breakfast or I will not let him ride to work, the body can't do all that work on no fuel. In the past 2 days he has eaten more breakfast than he has our entire married life.

His bike looks enormous, it's not that is is big, the wheels are bigger than the bikes I am used to. It seems a little bit odd as we are small people , yet it seems to fit him. I will henceforth refer to it as the "Aluminum Horse" and I will tell people that Moose rode his horse to work which is laden with irony considering our origins.

Pet Peeves

Have have 2 pet peeves, oddly they both have to do with with words.
One is cutesy spelling or clever misspelling, call it what you will. "Kids Korner"drives me up the wall. Now I realize that I am being a bit hypocritical since my business is called "Cuddlebugg" but the cuddlebug domain name was already taken and that little girl was not giving it up. Also I think as far as spelling errors go, a double g is a minor sin. Some spell "Greg", "Gregg."

But far and away what really annoys me is when people say "samwich." What are these people thinking? "OK, here is a word, there is an 'n' and a 'd' which I am going to replace with an 'm'?" It is not as if "sandwich"is much harder to say than "samwich" you just need to be able to master the slightest bit of diction.

And what annoys me even further is when people who make the sandwich their business make the same mistake. Just listen the next time you hear a Subway commercial. Is proper pronunciation too much to ask of your paid professional voice actors????

My mother's Day card

This is the actual contents of my mother's day card from Commander C. It was a printed out card with fill in the blanks. The bold red words are his answers. I'll take them!

This is my mother. Her name is (my name without the last letter). She is about 29 years old. She has brown eyes and brown hair. She weighs about 111 pounds. Her favorite food is hashbrown. She's smart, she knows all about cooking. She spends most of her time reading in bed. Best of all mother likes to me. My mother takes care of me by helping me. I think my mother is the best in the world because she nice. I could wish for anything in the world for my mother, it would be anything.

Mother's Day

Many women dislike Mother's Day. They say it makes them feel guilty, that they aren't good enough. I love Mother's Day. It makes me feel happy, grateful and inspires me to be better and to enjoy those sweet little faces more.
So far, my day has included a tasty breakfast in bed with freshly cut lilacs (my other favorite flower) made by my husband. I have snuggled my sweet kids and fixed my little girl's hair. The only black mark on the day may be the weather. If the forecasts are correct our annual Mother's Day picnic may have to be cancelled.

Hate - a deadly sin?

I couldn't find hate as a deadly sin (Mormons think all sins are pretty much bad) by my parochially educated husband informs me that hate is included in wrath.
I don't think that we should Hate, we should certainly not hate people. I think that there is too much hate in this world and we should all start loving more and hating less.
That said, I have a very short list of things that I hate. My husband and children have the list memorized.
The three things I hate are:
1. Being Late
2. Wasting
3. Styrofoam
I am sure these are all self explanatory, if you can't figure out why I hate Styrofoam , let me know and I will mail you a package, you let the kids play in it, and then you can count how many years it takes to get every peice out of your house.
There has however recently been a new addition. Actually I have hated it for at least 5 years now but only recently did I decide to add it to the list...
4. Intel's T-comp Handbook
If there is ever a problem or question about your benefits at Intel, there is not a single person at Intel to help you out. There is only the all knowing and completely inept T-Comp Handbook. May it burn forever. In fact that is a good Idea, I think I have one, a little purging bonfire may be in order.

April Reading List

April Reading List

The Merry Adventures of Robin Hood - By Howard Pyle
As I lifelong admirer of Robin Hood I have never before read of Robin's demise. I mean I knew he died, because I have been to Sherwood Forest and he isn't there. I don't know how I feel about it yet, but I was pushing back tears as I read. Criticism: no Maid Marian at all. Her name was mentioned only once and in passing. I ask you, what is Robin Hood without Maid Marian?

I, Robot - By Isaac Asimov
Very thought provoking. Logical. Humorous.

Free to Choose - By Milton and Rose Friedman
This will be a cram before next weekend. I HAVE to read it because it was my idea. So far I know a little about pencils.

Up Next:

Dead Reckoning - By my friend Craig Cheney and his brothers Jeffery and Jared

Leadership Education, The Phases of Learning - By Oliver deMille

On Hold:

Teach the Children - by Neal Flinders

My bucket list

A "Bucket List" is a phrase made popular by the movie "The Bucket List" which I have not seen and which I may or may not see sometime in the future. The idea, I believe, is a bit older. A bucket list is a list of things you would like to do before you kick the bucket. Here is most of mine. (be sure to click the links they'll give you a chuckle)

• go to Prague

• see Petra

• write and publish a book

• learn a foreign language

• Have a Library of at least 1,000 volumes

• be a skilled archer

• learn to play an instrument proficiently

• visit England again

• read all of Shakespeare

• go kayaking

• write a free lance article

• sing with a band

• learn about rock stacking

• make a fabulous dress (for me)

• see a flowing volcano

• become a good chess player

• create a masterpiece

• keep a tidy house

• become Liber

• be an artist

• be a scriptorian

• be a cozy grandmother

• learn to tatt
  

• have a fruitful garden

• Learn to spin fibers

Kindred Spirits pt 2

To my friend Juliann,

Who rearranges her furniture more often than anyone I have ever met. Who paints her walls almost as frequently. Who is an artist,a painter, a romantic, a seamstress, a mother, a wife, a friend.

One day we were shopping in Target and she, then a mother of 4 was approached by a modeling scout. She is tall, graceful, and lovely.
She is so generous and helpful, always serving. She makes friends wherever she goes.

Who is lovely and likes lovely things. Who broke my heart when she moved away. To Juliann, who I hope now has better luck with cars, my creative buddy, I miss you.

Hawaii is good for the economy

Not only do you spend oodles of money getting to, staying in, and partaking of tourist delights in Paradise, but you get to spend tons of money preparing to go to Hawaii. Our modest list includes a new digital camera, swimming suits, underwear, luggage and clothing. We are also spending our money from China, I mean the government stimulus package on this trip, any other year we would have wisely saved it for when the Chinese want their money back.

I don't have a whole lot of time to shop for clothes or rather I avoid shopping for clothes with 3 munchkins in tow at all costs. So, I have been shopping online, a dangerous proposition for someone who rarely finds clothes that fit on the rack. My swimming suit has been purchased in pieces. The top has not arrived yet but the bottoms came last week... That mass of coral you see above that is my swim bottoms. That tiny hand that is my hand, see how you are looking down my long arm, that is how far I had to hold the camera to get the entire piece in the frame. I couldn't believe that much fabric was needed for my suit, I was right they could have used less. I also learned something else, swim skirts aren't just nice, they are now a necessity for me. There are parts of my body that will never be seen in public again. This *ahem* little number will be sent back to Land's End post haste. It is a really cute style but not on me and that color simply will not do.

I was buying other items of clothing online just yesterday. I found a dress and a few tops and purchased them and I had to pay shipping. Then today the same place unveils their swim line, and they have just the right swim skirt for me. Alas my order has already shipped so I will have to pay shipping again. Yuck. That is a lot of shipping for one suit, which is also good for the economy.

Aloha, Pele

Well, the helicopter tour tickets have been purchased. It is hard to swallow that expense but as everyone says: "It is a once in a lifetime opportunity." We will be flying over a flowing volcano. I think that is so cool. I just hope Pele isn't jealous of my beauty. We decided to go with Blue Hawaiian Tours, if you have had experience with them let me know.

Montana Girl

I sent most of my youth wanting to get out of Montana. As far as I was concerned my parents kidnapped me when we moved there. I really thought that if I cried hard enough they would let me (4 years old) stay with Grandma and Aunt Janie. Aunt Janie tells me she thought if she cried hard enough they would let me stay.
Some time in the last years of high school I realized I was a Montana girl. I wanted to go see the world but going to see the world was no longer driven by getting away from Montana, it was more about telling the world how Montana was better.
I grew up with the above picture just a few minutes drive north and the largest freshwater lake west of the Mississippi just to the south. I grew up hiking the Bob Marshall Wilderness and Jewel Basin and taking for granted that if you wanted a swim there is ALWAYS a body of water close by. I can tell you seeing picturesque England was marred by the dirty rivers that cut through the villages. I just couldn't comprehend dirty rivers.

I am not a cowgirl, I can ride a horse but just well enough that I don't fall off. I am not a skier, farmer or wilderness junkie. I like living in the Pacific Northwest but I am a Montana girl.

The sky really is bigger in Montana.

Kindred Spirits pt.1

To my friend Jenny,

I think of you nearly everyday as I pull my homemade bread out of the oven. I knew that you made your own bread, but that isn't what motivated me to make mine. Someone told me after you moved your plastic bag trick and after that I started making bread. You are so kind hearted and happy. You taught me piano lessons. You gave me my Kitchen Aid mixer. I think you are crazy for running when nothing is chasing you. Your kids are amazing. I miss you a lot.

Unsettled

I have a huge knot in the pit of my stomach. I find it disturbing that the Texas CPS can take more than 400 children from their mothers based on the allegations of one girl - who may in fact not be real. She was complaining of abuse to herself not all the children on the ranch. There is no evidence so the children have been separated from their mothers so the state can get some evidence. We are told in this country that there has to be evidence before you are proven guilty but apparently that doesn't matter when it comes to stealing your kids.

What if the DHS decidedes that it doesn't like my religion, or my clothes, or decides I don't get my kids out enough? Will they take mine away? What if an angry neighbor "annonymously" calls DHS and claims I am abusing my kids? Then it is up to me to spend months if not years and a small fourtune to get my kids back, not to mention the trauma my children will suffer.

If this doesn't disturb you it should. Just because these people dress differently, belive differntly and talk so sweetly doesn't mean it can't happen to you. We should be outraged and the state of Texas should be hiding its actions out of shame.

Mother torture anyone?

I really hate swimming lessons. I love swimming, the kinder love swimming too but I think swimming lessons were designed as torture for moms. Swimming lessons in the summer I can only assume, would be sheer insanity. Imagine every single child crammed into the swimming pool with their parents on the bleachers.
One of the blessings of homeschool is the ability to enroll my kids in lessons in April well before the little ones are let out of kiddy prison and unleashed upon the unsuspecting swim-team graduates.
Still I find lessons relentless torture. They are always scheduled a wee bit earlier than we are used to being out of the house, we get there barely on time. I manoeuvre my slow children through the crowded dressing room to the pool and I get situated and Nutmeg starts playing. I try to maintain a balance friendly mom to chat with other moms, but each time I chat I can't pay attention to my kids. As soon as look up they are just finishing their turn. Before I know it the 25 min lessons are finished. Then I take a waddling, shivering 4 year old into the women's dressing room with all of the other mothers, their boys AND girls and their strollers, in addition to the half a dozen old ladies who have dropped by for a swim.
Then Mom has to go into the shower to turn it on for said 4 year old, getting wet in the process while the 2 year old is doing who knows what elsewhere. Then it is time to get a slow, wet 4 year old dressed. You know how underwear, pants and socks do not want to go on damp skin. Yeah, that is how I send my mornings now. Then we rush home just in time for the kids to simultaneously beg for food the moment I drag all of the wet clothes out of the van and into the house. I ask, if my patience is all used up by 11am, what are we left with? Answer: me snapping all day long and lying about the house in a martyr's pose begging the kids to please stop whining.

Mercifully lessons last only 4 weeks. I don't think I am going to make it.

The Law of 3

I made a batch of Turkish Delight last night. It didn't set so I made another, it also did not set. this could have been because I was cooking on the Sabbath or just a failing on my part. Tonight I made rhubarb crisp - also a failure. I would blame my appliance but the Turkish Delight was a stovetop project while the crisp was an oven affair.

The question is, if these things usually happen in threes; am I safe? Does each failed batch of Turkish Delight count or are they one collective failure. How will Commander C's birthday cake turn out tomorrow? Is it free from the curse?

And how will I ever satisfy my craving for a rose flavored confection?

Things I love (totally stole this topic form Kiera)

1. Newborn babies
2. Freshly folded cloth diapers
3. Devil's Food Cake
4. Needlework
5. My Champlin hoodie
6. Swimming in Loon Lake
7. England
8. Freedom
9. Vintage Mustangs
10. Benihana's seared tuna
11. Ridiculously full skirts

The Elusive Cello Suite pt 2

Cello has been purchased. Smiles all around. Lessons about to begin.

Cranford!

I finished watching Sense and Sensibility on Masterpiece last night (yes, it was very good.) In the previews for the next round of Masterpiece they had Cranford. Cranford! So, right now you are thinking what is Cranford? Cranford is a delightful pastoral novel by Mrs. Gaskell. I discovered Gaskell when reading all the biographies I could find on Charlotte Bronte. Mrs. Gaskell actually met and interviewed Charlotte before her death. I enjoyed the biography and read many of Gaskell's other works. My favorite is Cranford followed by North and South (no, not that North and South.) Take the time to read this book it is very short and so charming. Then watch it on Masterpiece, you won't be disappointed (I hope) Judi Dench is in it!
My favorite part is when a friend sends the women a "cage" and they can't figure out what it is for.

March Reading list

Finished:
God's Politics - by Jim Wallis
This was a very thought provoking book. It really made me examine issues that I thought I held to moral high ground on. As a book group we really felt the need to do more for the poor but disagree with Wallis that the government should do something about it. I feel it is everyone's personal responsibility, not one we should delegate.

Currently Reading:
The Merry Adventures of Robing Hood - By Howard Pyle
We are still pressing forward, it is a long book and difficult reading. Some nights the boys aren't listening so I don't read very long. We are enjoying it.

Free To Choose - by Milton and Rose Friedman
This is for our TJEd book goup. I have only just started. I am very excited because Friedman was so smart.

I, Robot - by Isaac Asimov
A little out of my usual reading material. Reading this for the other book group. This is an easy read, has interesting ideas and some parts are hilarious 60 years after it was written (not intentional.)

The Book of Mormon -
Still doing this is fits and starts but better than usual.

Teach the Children - by Neal Flinders
Haven't picked this up in about a month. Looking forward to getting back to it.

Up Next:

Dead Reckoning - By my friend Craig Cheney and his brothers Jeffery and Jared

Leadership Education, The Phases of Learning - By Oliver deMille

The Elusive Cello Suite

Boba Fett wants to play the cello. Cellos as you may know are very expensive. Quality used cellos at what I would consider an affordable price are hard to come by. Compund that with the fact that Boba Fett is a very little guy so we are looking for an 1/8 sized cello. This is nigh impossible. I have spent the last 7 days obsessing over finding a cello including a very stressful afternoon on e-bay where I lost the auction. I have not given up but I am no longer hopeful.

Library Thing

I like books. Nay, I LOVE books. You could say that I am a Bibliophile. It is my goal to have a small library and SHELVES. I found this site and I am having a great deal of fun with it. The limit of books for the free account is 200 and I know that I have about 800 so I am going to have to upgrade to a paid account.

FYI, there will be a party when I near 1,000 books. Friends and family will be invited to my party and will be asked to bring me a gift of a book. If the book is a duplicate of a book I already own, it doesn't count. The person who brings the 1,000th book will get a prize and will be honored as the donor of the 1,000th book.

How many fingers do you see?

I need glasses. The nice eye doctor says I can use them for reading, sewing and driving. I don't have to wear them all the time. Take that eye doctor I saw 6 years ago. I pulled out my old glasses a while ago and noticed that they are terribly dated. 6 years ago they were the cusp of eye wear fashion, now they are lame. We will be picking out new frames tonight, they of course will be trendy and dated in a few years. C'est la vie!

He is Risen!

We are singing two songs in Sacrament meeting this morning one of peace and one of JOY! I love them. Even though it is cloudy and grey what a wonderful day. I am including the lyrics because they describe my heart this morning.






O Morn of Beauty - Jean Sibelius

O morn of beauty, morn of gladness!
Awak'ning joy, dispelling shades of night,
Gone is the gloom, the sorrow and the sadness,
Now breaks the day of peace and light.
Sing and Rejoice with joyful alleluias,
Sing alleluia, alleluia!

The days are past when souls were wrapt in mourning,
The earth awakes with vict'ry as her strain,
Lift up your hearts and greet the glad day dawning,
For Christ the Lord is ris'n again!
Sing and rejoice with joyful alleluias,
Sing alleluia, alleluia!


Let the Trumpet Sound - Natalie Sleeth

Let the trumpet sound, Hallelujah, Hallelujah,
Let the earth resound, Hallelujah Amen!
Let the people sing, Hallelujah, Hallelujah,
Let the heavens ring Hallelujah, Amen!
Now and ever blessed are we
Christ has won the victory!
Let the world rejoice, Hallelujah, Hallelujah,
Let the chorus voice, Hallelujah, Amen!

Christ the Lord, is risen on this Easter Day.
From his mortal prison where three days he lay.
Love has come down to roll the stone away;
Gone is now the sorrow, Dawns the joyful day.

Let the trumpet sound, Hallelujah, Hallelujah,
Let the earth resound, Hallelujah Amen!
Let the people sing, Hallelujah, Hallelujah,
Let the heavens ring Hallelujah, Amen!
Now and ever blessed are we
Christ has won the victory!

Let the night be gone, Let the daylight dawn,Hallelujah, Amen!
Let the world rejoice, Let the chorus voice: Hallelujah, Amen!
Christ is risen! Christ is risen! Hallelujah, Amen!

The Business of Being Born

I just watched The Business of Being Born . It was so wonderful. I thought I would be angry but I am more thoughtful. Thank you to my two earthly angels; to Cindy who was my doula at my hospital birth and to Betty my midwife for my two homebirths. Thank you for helping me find myself. Thank you to my 3 children who are the reason I am who I am. Amen.

A picture of Nutmeg just after birth at home on my crazy zebra sheets with her born at home bracelet.

Plumbing

Why the image of a commonly eaten junk food that is often passed off as real food? Why because that is what was clogging my kitchen sink. For which I had to endure 18 hours of Draino fumes and pay $69 to the plumber. FYI if there is a lot of mac n' cheese in your disposal, when you turn it on it doesn't dispose, it just sucks it all into the drain where it sits in your u-bend and clogs up your sink.

The good news is I know a plumber so I knew who to call and I think $69 is a reasonable fee. Also, there is only one person in the house who eats "smack" and it isn't me.

Hug your babies...

A little lost boy was found outside of my house today. He rode his trike about 3 blocks around the corner and up the hill and on to the MAJOR road near my house. He was probably 2 certainly not yet 3. The people who found him knocked on my door since the kids were playing outside to see if he belonged to me. He was IN the road. Luckily his mom came just after the police arrived. Unfortunately I did not know where he came from. I was afraid that he lived in the mega condo-plex behind our house. We might never have found his mom.

So pick up your babies and hug them tight, and please tell them not to ride in the middle of the road.

Ok, so I like SOME poetry

Mi amiga takes exception to my feeling for flowery rhymes I seek to vindicate myself.
I really appreciate carefully crafted prose. If you want to say something just say already quit pussyfooting around it like a wimpy old lady. I am aware that this is a shocking revelation in my personality, it shocks me too. A girl who likes period dramas and embroidery would seemingly be a fool for poetry. I, however; skip whole sections of books where a poem or song is retold. I do like some poetry like the kind that don't use sentences but just string words or phrases together.

Here is poetry I can handle

So much depends
upon

a red wheel
barrow

glazed with rain
water

beside the white
chickens.
-William Carlos Williams

Edna St. Vincent Millay
Haiku ( I really love haiku)
The Highwayman - Noyes
and I can indeed enjoy a rhymed couplet (they aren't long enough to make me glaze over)

Chicken boarding school??

I love fresh eggs. Moose used to work with a guy who kept chickens and for a couple of years we were treated to free farm eggs. Eventually he stopped keeping chickens and I was left to buy my own eggs, there was a farm nearby that sold them, but they stopped.

My neighbor says that then they bought their house there was a paper that said "no chickens" on it, but I never saw such a rule. I don't know if our yard is big enough anyway. I think I will call the county and ask. Not that Moose would EVER let me have chickens on our tiny lot.

I have 2 friends that keep chickens and I am envious. Our babysitter (daughter of one of the friends) suggested that it wouldn't be anymore work to take care of 6-8 chickens than it is to take care of 4 and hinted that maybe my chickens could board at their house. I told her maybe she should check with her mom before she offered that, also It didn't sound fair that they do all the work and I get the spoils, though of course I would pay for feed.

Then I got to thinking, wouldn't it be cute to get chicks in Easter baskets? Then I looked on Craigslist and found chicks for sale.

So I am just wondering, anyone out there who wants to board some chickens for me? I would like to get Araucanas for the pretty eggs but if that won't jive with your flock I could change my mind.

The first bloom

Violets are my favorite flower, followed by lilacs, lily of the valley and tea roses. Very old fashioned, I know. This is a blurry picture of the firt violet in my violet patch. The first bloom of spring!

COD4

We have a wonderful new droid in our home. Its number is COD4 and he washes my dishes. He does it very, very well. Moose sacrificed from his computer cache to buy this for me. Turns our that the old dishwasher that never cleaned was just a bad model. So I am not crazy and I DO know how to load a dishwasher.

February Reading List

I have started reading again as knitting season is in the Pro-bowl state.

Read this month:
Ivanhoe - By Sir Walter Scott - For TJEd discussion group. Liked it, really liked it, but thought that is was too long. Why is this book called "Ivanhoe"? It should be called "Rebecca" or "Superbad knights from Merry Old England, Their Cohorts and Their Ladies"

Instead of Education - by John Holt for a different discussion Group. Good stuff. Down with S-chools, hooray for homeschools, s-chools unite!

Persepolis - By Marjane Satropi
A touch of misguided communism in appealing comic book form. Interesting look and the Iran of the late 70's early 80's. I don't know much about the topic so I was unable to compare it with anything else. Iranians are people too - their leaders are a little bit ...off. Recommended reading takes 2 hours tops.

Currenty reading:

Teach the Children - by Neal Flinders
Good, but I find it frustrating to read books that want to advocate homeschooling but can't because they were written before homeschooling became acceptable so they focus on fixing the broken and unfix-able public school machine. (Also my only criticism of Instead of Education - just tell us to Homeschool!)

The Merry Adventures of Robing Hood - By Howard Pyle
I inherited this bedtime story book because Moose does not like reading Pyle. I now know why
"Speak the speech, I pray you, as I pronounced it to you, trippingly on the tongue." is nothing to the prose of Pyle. Luckily I have a background in Shakespeare and I can barrel through fancy language with some ease. I am probably reading it too fast, I always read aloud very quickly.
Question: Is Robin Hood a good role model? He is a criminal, how do I work this into a leadership education? Commander C is lapping it up and thus so I continue.

The Book of Mormon:
Totally doing this in fits and starts, like 15 chapters on Sunday, 3 on Wednesday and guilt the other 5 days of the week. I am highlighting in green with my new fancy scripture marker all the verses that are examples on how and what to teach one's Children.

To be read:
Mary Barton - Elisabeth Gaskell (for fun)
The Phantom Tollbooth - Norton Juster (for Commonwealth)
God's Politics - By Jim Wallis (for TJEd discussion group) this will prove thought provoking, thus far I am not agreeing with the author.

63 reasons to love Luke!

1. He is cute.
2. He says "G'day"
3. He writes "I love Janessa Moss" in the sand.
4. His fingers never smell like smoke.
5. Dad likes him.
6. He LOVES the USA!
7. He is LDS.
8. He is not chubby.
9. He likes our family.
10. The family likes him.
11. He wanted to give his DS to Eddy.
12. Eddy loves him.
13. He has brown eyes.
14. He has brown hair.
15. He is so nice.
16. Mom like him.
17. He will take a girl to the temple.
18. His mom likes Janessa.
19. He bought Taylor a boomerang.
20. He is tall but not too tall.
21. He wears hoodies at the cinema.
22. Sara likes him.
23. He knows how to throw anotha shrimp on the barbie.
24. He is generous.
25. He puts up with Janessa and still loves her.
26. We like the way he talks.
27. He'll treat you right.
28. Brian likes him.
29. He spent Christmas in a foreign land.
30. He would be a good father.
31. Regan likes him.
32. He likes mint oreos.
33. He likes to go shopping.
34. He is not gay.
35. His initials spell LAW
36. Jessica likes him.
37. HE showed Danny how to pull his thumb off.
38. His breath never smells like beer.
39. He likes Montana.
40. He doesn't leave the toilet seat up.
41.Cameron likes him.
42. He is Australian.
43.He'll move across the world to be near you.
44.He is good with kids.
45.He is handy.
46.Margaret likes him
47. He can lay tile.
48. He is not a bum.
49. He likes Disneyland
50.He conserves water.
51. Kylene likes him.
52. He does a good gay impression.
53. You don't deserve him.
54. Danny likes him.
55. Jason likes him.
56. Jeremy likes him.
57.He has a job.
58.Audrey likes him.
59. Janie likes him.
60. Shawnel likes him.
61. Really you love him.
62. He is the best thing that could ever happen to you.
63. He is forgiving.

Here's a little something for you!

SO, I don't take pills. When I am pregnant I try to choke down a few because I am generally anemic and tired during pregnancy. I also do not remember to give my children pills. Yet I have an entire cupboard shelf for vitamins, herbs and supplements. My homeopathics DO get used but the rest of this stuff...not so much.

I was organizing my cupboard today and took all of these things out. Nearly half are things I puchased because I wanted to. The Vitamin C, B-12, Folic Acid, Dandelion Root, Papaya Root (pregnancy heartburn be gone), Cran-actin, Cramp-ease, Nettle and Garlic Oil.

The Other half are things that my practicioners convinced me to buy. The trouble with those are ... they aren't cheap. We are talking about $30+ a bottle here folks. Most of them are things that it would behoove me to take or give to my children, but I forget. There are a few exceptions there is the big bottle with a shiny label, that is from the MLM my parents were into before the current one. Why do Mormons Like MLM's so much? I don't know, I did not inherit that gene. I don't know what it does and as I opened it this afternoon I learned, the seal hasn't even been broken.
Then there is the Opti-Gyn. Opti-Gyn is some sort of super vitamin for women with reprodictive issues. I acquired a this bottle during a last ditch effort to avoid surgery. It was a late rainy winter evening, I got a last minute appointment at the Naturopathic College of Medicine downtown. My best friend saved me by watching my son for me while I went in. While I was there I learned 1) My insurance would not cover this visit and the person who recommended it to me had a different idea of affordable than I did. 2) It was hot in that building, and I was in emotional distress. 3) I was starving and dangerously close to passing out from hunger.
After waiting quite some time I finally was ushered into a room with a real doctor and 3 students. I cried out my story to them and told them how much I wanted to avoid surgery and that it was scheduled in 3 weeks.
They grilled me, asked every single question under the sun, 3 times. They then left the room for quite some time to confer and then came back, told me to eat a better diet and showed me out the door. Where I was met with a bill of $80 and told to buy this bottle of pills. Cost $40 - sure I could have declined to do so but all 4 of the doctors were hovering watching me write out my check and as I mentioned the 3 points I was in no state to argue. As soon as I left the building I cried, and cried and cried. I picked up my son, crying out the whole story and then arrived home where my husband had to make me soup and put me to bed.

The next morning I called the office and told them I would like to return my bottle of pills. I was told that all pharmacy purchases were non refundable. I was so mad, I stopped payment on my check. Where I learned 1) banks charge $25 dollars to stop payment on checks. 2) even if you are pissed off about the treatment you recieved at the doctors office you still have to pay.

So I was stuck with the $80 visit, $40 pills, and $25 check cancellation fee, and a $10 late payment fee at the office. Nice, emotional abuse and highway robbery. And I still had to have the surgery.

I can't get rid of these pills because I am so frugal - I can't thow out money. I am not going to take them because I will not remember, I can't get rid of them because Freecycle won't let you freecycle "supplements" even though they won't define supplements.

So I just look at these pills as a tip. I give the practicioners ;who are all excellent (save the Opti-Gyn pushers) a little tip. They do a good job and I smile and buy their pills so they can make a little more money than my insurance company will pay them.

Husband tagging

1. What is his name?
Moosedrool
2. How long have you been married?
8.35 years
3. How long did you date?
It was twisted long distance thing over the space of 3 years
4. Who eats more?
Me
5. Who said 'I love you' first?
Me
6. Who sings better?
Me (well I am the only one to have been heard singing, his singing voice is a mystery)
7. Who is taller?
Him
8. Whose temper is worse?
Mine
9. Who does the laundry?
Me
10. Who does the dishes?
Me
11. Who sleeps on the right side of the bed?
We switch every few months, right now me.
12. Who does the cooking?
Me
13. Who is more stubborn?
Me
14. Who proposed?
Ummmm...
16. Whose parents do you see the most?
About the same, maybe mine?
17. Who pays the bills?
Me
18. Who wears the pants in the family?
Hmmm good question, I try to, but it doesn't always work....I can't really say, Maybe it is a 4 legged pair o' pants.
19. Why do you love your husband?
Because he is the yang to my yin, his strengths are my weaknesses. He lets me follow my passion. He likes pulp-free orange juice and hates gravy. He thinks I am beautiful. He is a wonderful father and husband. He is VERY patient. He is a proponent of symmetry. He is exactly what I need. He is.

Hmm I've been tagged

A. The rules of the game are posted at the beginning.
B. Each player answers the questions about themselves.
C. At the end of the post, the player then tags 5 people and posts their names, then goes to their blogs and leaves them a comment, letting them know that they have been tagged and asking them to read your blog.

10 years ago: (Jan 1998) I was fresh off a semester abroad in London and starting my first semester at the University of Idaho. I had just moved in with a nightmare roomate (don't worry I only lived with her for a month and then I moved in with one of my closest friends, Liz). I was in the theatre department pursuing acting but was about to learn to sew and fall in love with costuming. I was 19, bouncy and obnoxious. I was just getting into the groove at "The Tute" the coolest Institute on the planet. Good times.
5 years ago:
I was living in my current home, I had just found out I was pregnant with #2. I was very excited. I don't remember much else.

2years ago:
I was 7 days postpartum with my sweet little girl wrapped up in my arms. I had a lovely homebirth with her. I had wanted a little girl so badly and she was finally here and she was so tiny, unlike my other babies. I was probably just coming downstairs for the first time. My mom and youngest brother were here helping out. Those were very, very happy days.

5 things on my to-do list today:
1. Go to Commonwealth School and remember to pack a lunch for us.
2. Do the dishes.
3. Clean the house before Knitting class tomorrow
4. Read Cicero The Republic and The Laws (and understand)
5. Wear my freshly knit and blocked skirt.

Snacks I enjoy:
1. Spanikopita
2. Dark Chocolate truffles
3. Pumpkin Oatmeal Chocolate Chip Cookies
4. Chips and homemade salsa
5. Cake

Things I would do if I were a billionaire:
1. Build a house on a decent sized piece of land
2. Have library in said house.
3. Go to Prague.
4. Move all of my family onto the big piece of land.
5. Go back to London.

3 of my bad habits:
1. I sleep in and stay up very late.
2. I write notes on whatever scrap of paper I have handy and then I have piles of important envelopes and reciepts that no one can throw away because I wrote a note on them.
3. I leave things wherever - causing much clutter and mess an I am always losing those things.

5 places I have lived:
1. Kalispell, Montana
2. Logan, Utah
3. London, UK
4. Moscow, Idaho
5. West Lafayette, Indiana

5 jobs I have had:
1. Tour Guide at the Conrad Mansion
2. Costumer for the Idaho Reperatoty Theatre
3. Tour Guide at the University of Idaho
4. Theatre Assistant at Hollins College Theatre
5. housekeeper/waitress at the Flathead Lake Lodge

5 things people don't know about me:
1. I was Queen of the Elves in the Christmas Parade
2.I was vice president of the Teen Republicans in High School
3.I want to learn Japanese for no good reason other than I want to.
4. I auditioned to be on "Jeopardy!" and did pretty well.
5. I am a Montana girl at heart.

The Jane Eyre

As you may know Jane Eyre is hands down my favorite book. I have seen many film adaptations of Jane Eyre some have been ok, some have been poor, some have their good points like Orson Wells' performance coupled with dark and eerie cinematography.

But the latest Jane Eyre done by the BBC is good, really good. I first saw it on Masterpiece Theatre last spring( ?) and I watched it again this week. The first time around my 6 and 3 year old boys watched it with me. They were really excited about the "ghost. "

This adaptation is faithful to the book. A few things are added that appear to only clarify points that are made in the book but don't translate into action or dialogue.

When I read Jane Eyre I am overcome with emotion. The passions in the book are so powerful and often seem to be overlooked in the film versions. This version has passion, the characters talk about the passions they feel.

Rochester is a little too handsome and not at all hideous even after the accident, but hey since Mr. Rochester is one of my biggest crushes I won't object to him being easy on the eyes.

The costumes were great which is always a major factor for me in period films.

So put it on your netflix queue and watch it already.

Help these kids!

Take a look and see if you can help out this family. Their kids need room to run. You might think they are crazy but there are much crazier things out there on the internet that have been sucessful. www.moosefamilyhome.blogspot.com

 

 

Ignorant and simple that' s me! A Mother.

I'd just like to thank Linda Hirshman for enlightening me. Why, all my life I have been thinking I was an intelligent interesting woman; but no, I am ignorant, simple, oppressed and not even happy. Unfulfilled.
Ms. Hirshman really ticked several thousands of moms off last week when she appeared on Good Morning America. I didn't see it - I am too busy being unfulfilled by taking care of my offspring to watch GMA but I did read the article when someone told me about the show.

Ms. Hirshman not only informed me that I was stupid and wasting my life but by implying that taking care of children is not worth while and fulfilling she invalidated entire professional fields such as childcare providers and school teachers. And I would just LOVE to ask her if she really thinks stupid people should be the ones raising and teaching children. I would prefer intelligent people do those things for my children.

This is my favorite quote "One of the things I've done working on my book is to read a lot of the diaries online, and their description of their lives does not sound particularly interesting or fulfilling for a complicated person, for a complicated, educated person." First, that is really scientific research, Sherlock. Second, explain to me how nurturing and caring for the most special spirits on the earth, molding their minds, watching them discover the world, watching them discover themselves is uninteresting or unfulfilling. Third, maybe these things don't SEEM interesting to YOU, that does not mean they are not interesting or fulfilling to the people who do them. What hubris!

" She asks why should business schools give advanced degrees to those who don't use them?" the article goes on to say.
UHHHH. I must say I am not quite sure what is the best way to respond to this kind of logic. Is education ever wasted by those who value it? I use my college education EVERYDAY as a mother, it is hardly wasted. I won't even go into education vs. schooling and which is more valuable and how you get it. Does using an education mean earning a paycheck?

'"I think it's a mistake for these highly educated and capable women to make that choice [to stay home]," said law professor and working mom Linda Hirshman. "I am saying an educated, competent adult's place is in the office.'"

Apparently Ms. Hirshman's view is the ONLY occupations that are valuable are those in the board room, courtroom, and those making money for others who bow down before the almighty dollar. Who makes the food she eats, the clothes she wears and the art she looks at? I guarantee these people do not all posses degrees. Are these jobs not valuable to society? Raising children and providing a home for them and for their fathers to come home to is not valuable? I do a lot of things if you added up all of my occupations you would see that I could command a very high paycheck - I just do my work pro bono (that's a fancy word for free that will make business women think you are OK to the feminist movement.)

"I think that one could argue that these women are letting down the team," Hirshman said. Yeah. Raising a generation of intelligent capable human beings is letting down the team. Someone has to do it and who better than a parent? A parent has a vested interest in the child's well being a parent wants nothing more than for their child to succeed in life - no matter their definition of success. The nanny, daycare worker and school teacher are doing their job and no matter how much they like your kid it is still just their job. They go home and think about their family not yours.

Now, don't come to me with your story about how you HAVE to work and you HAVE to let someone else take care of your kids. That's fine, if you have to work you have to, this is not about that. This is about the people who choose to stay home are being devalued because of that choice.

Just to let you know how deceived I was about my own intelligence and rank on the interesting scale, here is an example. I have a friend, also a stay at home mom, our children are the same age so we often go on walks. During these walks we have time to talk, here are a FEW of the topics we touch on during these strolls of ignorance and simpleness. Economics (Nash and things like that), medicine, politics, human development, society and it herding of the masses, education, reading skills, literature, cooking, nutrition, psychology, philosophy,unethical marketing practices in 3rd world countries, international issues, terrorism and its roots, religion and cultural differences between Americans and the Indian sub-continent, and our children and all related topics.

I also am part of a book group - we don't read the latest popular mystery or trashy novel. We read classic works of literature, philosophy, theology, math, science, and human nature. Then we get together and discuss in the attempt to mold ourselves into leaders in our community.

I am the leader of a local support group for parents and a member of a medical study group of people learning to take care of their families without relying on doctors and insurance companies.

I read voraciously (in books) and learn way too much for my own comfort on current events. I am an artist, I create when I have a spare minute.

Then there is the minor detail of running a household, feeding it, transporting it, and cleaning it. I homeschool my children full time.

Uninteresting, uneducated, not "complex."

In closing Ms. Hirshman and her feminist cronies (FYI - many women find feminists offensive and do not use the term to complement) are obviously feeling threatened that after all their man hating rhetoric and then turning around trying to be just like them, women still WANT to be at home with their families and enjoy it.

Unlike many women I don't apologize for being a stay at home mom by saying "I'm just a mom." I don't embellish by saying "domestic engineer", "chauffeur", "teacher", "housekeeper", "nurse", "cook", etc. I don't feel I need to. If other people don't know how hard stay at home moms work, and what they do all day SHAME ON THEM.

I am a mother.

prelude

The baby is here. 3 kids is TOUGH - suddenly you seem always busy, even more busy than before. But I have a daughter, how exciting to be raising a girl who will someday be a mother raising her own children. Of course I am treating her like a doll; after 2 boys I deserve to. We get all dressed up almost everyday. I spend more time planning what she will wear than what I will.

We have a wee nursing hitch. I have an oversupply of milk and forceful letdown, which means Nut doesn't have to work too hard to eat which has developed a lazy latch as well as gulping lots of air when she eats, and she spits up a lot. But we are getting through it and she is an excellent little pottier which make life SO easy.

I can't sleep because the babies aren't either!

I can't sleep. Too many things on my mind. Whirlwind of thoughts - frustration, anger, disappointment, helplessness, apathy.

The AAP has its new infant sleep recommendations out. What a load of misinformation. Basically it says never to sleep with your baby and to give them a pacifier. OK I don't have much against pacifiers they didn't harm my breastfeeding relationship with my first son and after a nasty virus he gave his binky up so we never had to get rid of a terrible habit. My second son I didn't encourage to use one - though I offered it but he never took to it.

but the anti-co-sleeping that REALLY gets me angry. First of all don't THEY know that SIDS statistics are grossly inaccurate? Basically if a baby dies while sleeping in this country they label it SIDS. Baby smothers - SIDS, baby chokes on foreign object- SIDS, Drunk and high- adult rolls over on baby - SIDS, baby has previous health problems and succumbs while sleeping - SIDS. And there are the actual unexplained cases of SIDS. I personally know someone whose baby had respiratory problems and her baby died while sleeping - couldn't get enough air- they labeled it SIDS. Its like the vaccine conspiracy - if your child has a reaction to a vaccine the doc is SUPPOSED to report it but they hardly ever do. It is all politics.

OK so now why co-sleeping is good. IT REDUCES THE RISK OF SIDS CASES AND OTHER INFANT DEATHS! First of all co-sleeping mothers often breastfeed which is known to reduce the risk of SIDS. A baby who suckles during the night has different sleeping patterns than a baby stuck alone in a crib and forced to spend the dark night there.
The mothers themselves are very aware while sleeping. I have never in 5 1/2 years ever not been aware of my children when they were in my bed. I have never rolled on top of them maybe a hand or foot) and I never let them slip under the covers. It just doesn't happen Mother radar just kicks in. I sleep deeply enough to ignore a kick or two but if something was wrong with my baby I would know in a heartbeat.
Another compelling reason is breathing patterns. Hearing someone breathe reminds babies to keep breathing - if they were inclined to stop hearing mom's heartbeat and breathing keeps them going too.
And the best reason mom always knows what is going on with baby. A baby in a crib in another room or the same room could be dead for hours before you would even think something was wrong. A mother next to her baby can know immediately and would have a chance of resuscitating the baby.

This has nothing to do with the crap coming from the AAP but is along the co-sleeping theme. Co-sleeping keeps me sane. I literally can not fathom how these parents can get up out of bed at night and pace around with a wailing baby! I can not do it I do not have the patience at night. The handful of times I have had to stay up with a sick baby I thought I was going to implode. My nighttime parenting skills consist of "Insert breast" for infants and " snuggle up" for toddlers. That is as far as my mind works at night.

Will I put my new little baby to sleep in my bed when she arrives? You bet I will you couldn't stop me it is safer and just makes more sense!

INXSive

OK so last night was the premiere of "Rock Star: INXS"

I have been so nervous because...what if it is LAME? And then my band would look stupid. But it wasn't lame, it was pretty good as far as reality TV shows go.

I love people actually recognizing INXS as a rock band - not just some 80's pop sensation. The guys looked GREAT. Garry still makes my haert skip a beat.

I was suprised that Tim did all the talking last night, I don't know I kinda pictured Andrew as the "leader" if there was one since he and Michael wrote most of the songs and I had gleaned from my fan-obsessed reading that he was kinda the driving force in the beginning.

So heres the funny thing. I have loved INXS since middle school. I love their older, pre- "Kick" stuff. When I was 18 I came out of a new age/ classical phase and fell back in love with INXS this time head over heels. I really wanted to see the Elegantly Wasted tour but I was saving my money for my semester in London and said "I'll catch them next time." Well...of course Michael died halfway through my semester. I watched them at the opening of the Sydney Olympics on TV but by the time they were touring again I was a married fuddy duddy old lady with kids to look after.

POINT IS - last night I felt like a teenager again. everytime I saw they guys or heard INXS on the TV my heart would race, face would flush I would squeal. it was crazy - Kinda like Beatlemania - but more restrained on my living room couch folding laundry.
It is almost time for tonight's show, of course I am Tivoing it but still...Thank you CBS for not letting the show be lame...so far.

The things we don't do

I spent an hour this morning clearing overgrown flowerbeds of grass and weeds. I liked it. I love working in the yard but I never do it. True the constant battle of trying to keep my house clean ( I am woefully inadequate on that front) keeps me preoccupied. But why do I never get outside?

It's like yoga. I love doing yoga, I feel so relaxed, my body feels great, I have more energy. Everytime I practice I say "WHY don't I do this everyday?" And the next day comes and I don't find the time and months pass by before I roll out my mat again.

My neighbor is retired and spends his time in the yard. It is the nicest garden. But he has TIME and MONEY to invest. I am surprised at how expensive yardwork is. You need tools, and stones, and plants and in our case dirt because we live apparently on a slab of clay. Which means if I want to grow food I need garden boxes so I can have a raised bed. The point is this is the yard next to mine so whenever I think about the state of my yard I get depressed comparing it to the garden of bliss next door. The only thing pretty in our yard are the things climbing over the fence from next door.

So funny little story. I went from the back yard through the house to the garage to get a rake. I opened the garage door and walked to the gate to go back into the yard. I opened the gate and was met by a ... JUNGLE...yes a jungle of weeds taller than myself. Luckily I had the rake to hack my way through.

Maybe we will spend the holiday weekend in the garden...

Brave new world

Ok so it has been a few months since I have blogged. I have 2 kids, a perpetually messy house, and an aggressive reading habit. I"M BUSY.

So what am I going to talk about, what has moved me to the computer at long last? Is it the US opposing stricter WHO breastfeeding standards, is it those anti-breastfeeding Prada toting idiots at "The View"? Am I announcing my 3rd pegnancy (due in January 2006)? NO. It is something small.

The Sacagawea Dollar is my muse. I just love that little gold coin.

1- It reminds me of the Pound. I loved the Pound in Britain. It felt heavy like it was really worth a pound. I know we Americans love our greenback - as well we should but I jut love using that heavy golden coin.

2- UMMM isn't it obvious a WOMAN WEARING her BABY on her BACK on our CURRENCY. That is so huge. She isn't using a stroller or carrying a diaper bag - she didn't have diapers. She isn't even holding her baby in a demure motherly way. She has that baby on her back and she is out to explore the world, to lead others, to be a guide in the new world.

That's the kind of mother I want to be. I love hiking with my baby snuggly tied on my back. I love the feel of his breath on the nape of my neck when he falls asleep. I love exploring the world with my baby in tow. I hope that I am leading the way through my example, that I can be a guide in the new world. The world where mothers are in tune with their babies' needs, the world where children aren't a hindrance to a woman's career but the crowning glory of a woman's life.

March reading list

It was a slow month, and to top it off I can't relly remember what I read, but here goes:

FAVORITE BOOK OF THE MONTH:
"Echoes of the elders: the stories and paintings of Chief Lelooska"
This book we found on the fairy tale shelf at the library I picked it out for the art work. I am so glad I did. The BEST part of this book is the CD included it has all the stories in the book on the CD told by a real Pacific Northwest Native American Storyteller. It is enthralling. My 4 year old asks to hear "The Owl Witch" and "Beaver Face" everytime we get in the car. We did read all the stories in the book as well.

"The Mayor of Casterbridge"- Thomas Hardy
Good stuff. I borrowed the Masterpiece Theatre production from the library and liked it so much that I read the book. I hate sad endings.

"Jane Eyre" - Charlotte Bronte
For the millionth time. I had started apologizing for JE being my favorite book by adding that my favorite book was a tie between JE and "The Tennant of Wildfell Hall" - by Anne Bronte. So I read Jane Eyre again (it had been a while) and WOW! Best book ever. No more apologizing. Such passion in everything. I love how she is religious and holds to god. I really hate how she ends with St, John though. It is a lovely passage but this book isn't about St. John, it is about Rochester!

"Pilgrim's Progress" - John Bunyan
...was alluded to in JE as in nearly EVERY book I have read this year, so I purchased a copy and have read the first two pages. Then I realized that the following book was due in a few days so I am putting PP aside and reading...

"C.S. Lewis: The Man and His Message" - Andrew Skinner
A collection of essays on Lewis and his works from an LDS perspective. This book is so powerful, it really makes me want to go back and slug through "Mere Christianity" and finish it this time. Then I'll take on his other stuff...or maybe I should do it the other way around.

"The Legend of Sleepy Hollow" - Washington Irving
FINALLY! I have been attempting to read this for umm...years! I don't know why but everytime I picked it up I didn't have the concentration. Such a fun story, unusual ending that really makes you want more. Now the book is off it's hitherto permanent place on my night table and back on the bookshelf.

"The Tale of Despereaux" - Kate DiCamillo
Oh this is a great little story. I am going to read it to my kids this week.

"The Ch`i-lin Purse : A Collection of Ancient Chinese Stories" - Linda Fang
Good tales with morals. I like learning about Asian thought.

Ok I think that is it. Of course we have been reading lots of children's fables and fairy tales this month - my 4 year old son is now afraid of witches but like giants and ogres - Go figure.

FUNNY BOOK STORY OF THE MONTH:
I reached my limit!!! My library has a limit of 100 items that can be checked out at a time. I reached it! It wasn't that hard between travel books for this summer's vacation, numberous kids books to read at night, DVD's and music CD's, books on tape for the car and my collection of books on every topic I am currently obsessed with. I scaled back, did a major purge and have been hovering in th 30-40 item range. The poor librarians looked shocked when I come to check out and there is nothing on hold for me, they always ask what is wrong! I love that the Librarians recognize me, ours is a BUSY library! I guess the adorable, chubbybaby on my back and the huge pile of books every week makes me memorable